rock and roll musings by Tim Byrnes

Here Now the News

     First off, Jim did not drive me away from this page. My work situation has changed. The convenience store where I used to work offerred me my old job back and I took it. While it affords me more hours and as a result more money, it lacks the Internet access I had at my last job so I've been unable to post. And you know what, I barely missed it. I emailed Simmons and Neblung and got sad news regarding Mike Hegger, a mutual friend and drummer for our old band Tension Envelopes. It appeats Mike succumbed to leukemia in December of 2003. I just got the news not 10 minutes ago and am still reeling. So do I write about our history, as ugly as it got at times, do I reminisce about someone I remember faintly through an alcoholic memory?

    No, not right now. Too much to process. Too many lost memories surfacing at once. And this page offers no comfort anymore now that it's been reduced to the useless and endless arguing between Jim and I and any/all takers. All I have to offer is pain and maybe a little humor. All you offer now is god, god and more god, which I've gone down on record repeatedly as finding useless.

     So fuck you and fuck god and fuck me for the person I've become. Claim yr victory Jim. Yr gonna anyway. See you in hell.

     I'll be the one w/the nicer apartment.

tb

Posted by: timbyrnes at 17:36 | link | comments (4)

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#1  16 May 2008 - 17:51

 

Mmm. I'm still processing it, too.

Plus, as I dragged Mike with me from The Bones to audition for The Envelopes.... even as I was falling in love for the first time with barely-ex-girlfriend.... yeah, we had our history and head-butts too. (Of course, I never flew to the opposite coast to try to date his sister, but still.... Laura was more than enough to put us at significant odds, let alone with her new boyfriend/Mike's business partner Keith stopping by, even as other stuff was going on behind both their backs... .but I digress....) Throw in Rick-Chris-Vetavitavegamin, and how we managed to hold together as long as we DID is kind of amazing....

Last time I saw him was the Librarians' gig at Jiggs in June 1990 (I think). My job responsbilities changed, and the practices in the Hegger basement were no longer an option. Plus, our second daughter was officially in Marion's belly -- I remember us sharing it with everyone that night. It was time to grow up and move on.

I knew Mike was having a hard time doing that. Actually, I'm surprised it was leukemia and not something closer to where ALL of us (except Rick) were headed some years earlier.....

burninglight

#2  17 May 2008 - 21:01

 

hey Tim -- just a thought -- ever consider either starting a new blog, or moving the old one to a different address -- and not telling this jim person where you've gone to? or -- you can also set your blog so that only motimers -- people logged in with specific identities can post to you. i don't know. maybe you like the debate. now i'm being oh-so-full-of-advice today. sorry. but do miss your regular posts.

sorry to hear about your pal.

limine

#3  18 May 2008 - 03:04

 

Hey, sorry about your friend, Tim and Carl. Prayers for his soul and for his friends and loved ones.

Jim

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#4  29 May 2008 - 03:36

 

"...and **** me for the person I've become."


What then must we think of the sin of those who curse themselves in moments of worry and difficulty? This is an appalling crime which is contrary to nature and to grace, for both nature and grace inspire us with love for ourselves. Those who curse themselves are like insane people who die by their own hands!

-- St John Vianney

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